I went and saw my bishop yesterday. I have mix feelings about the meeting.
He clearly had never heard a story like mine cause he was left speechless, didn't even know what to say.
He told me that this is beyond what he can help me with and gave me LDS family services info for me to make an appointment with a therapist. I told him though that I really needed spiritual help because if not this will completely make me go inactive forever. He tells me I need to be coming to church every Sunday and get involved. Also tells me he will be giving me a calling.
Going to church is easier said than done when you are inactive however if he feels this will help I will be making an effort to make it to church more regularly. Now about a calling....I myself need help and am a mess, I am not so sure that getting a calling will be the best thing ever right now. I don't even think I am in the state to hold a calling. What do I do or say?