I have decided not to take the help from the church with going to see a therapist.
I am not active to tell you the truth at this point in time I do not feel the desire to go to church. I have so many emotions and ill feelings that go along with church that I just cannot go to church on Sundays and pretend like I want to be there.
The bishop has made me feel like since the ward is paying for my counseling that I need to go to church and pay my tithing. When you are inactive feeling pressured to do things does not work.
So I have decided that I will not take the help that way if I go to church I go because I want to not because I feel like I have to.
I am trying to look for counseling thru a community health center around here.