Thursday, December 31, 2009


Well apparently my SIL hates me she never wants to see me again oh and this is the best, she thinks I am an ungrateful person plus she feels bad for her brother having to be married to me. LOL. Oh and I am not joking about this.

I say apparently because I wasn't home when she said those things because I refused to come home while she was over here. She decided that she was going to sleep over at our house uninvited. I don't do uninvited guest specially when 4 other people who were invited are sleeping here.

So here are my thoughts about all of this, first I am a really grateful person I give thanks about 100 times a day and I make sure if anyone does anything nice to/for me that I let them know how much it means to me, second wow if she feels bad that Jon married me, now I really know how she feels about me which in return she probably regrets that we had a child together, so sad.

My life goes on and I guess she just will not be a part of mine and my child.

Saturday, December 26, 2009


I will be making some changes to the blog. Does anyone know of any cool websites where I can get a cool template? Last night I spend like 2 hours searching with no luck. I have already changed my blog title and now I am just trying to figure out what my new blogspot address will be. Once I have that figured out I will again go public. I have the email of the few of you who actually read my blog so once I change it I will let you know what it will be. As of right now I am thinking that its going to be The hubby came up with that one but I am not 100% for it. If you guys have any ideas let me know too.

More Christmas

I just loved Christmas this year. Can you tell I was excited about being able to decorate my own tree this year. I must have taken like 20 pictures of the tree. I'm crazy and weird like that.

This is a nativity scene I got years and years ago maybe like 6 years ago my mom gave it to me for one day when I had my own family. Since that day I have never taken it out of it package till this Christmas. It was funny because Jon saw it and told me that I needed to paint it, I had to laugh, he doesn't get it that its supposed to be white.

Since I got married I have been wanting a stand mixer. I think everyone that knows me knows how much I want one. I LOVE baking, if it were up to me I would bake every day but that gets kinda crazy plus I would be over 200 pounds in no time. I have never gotten one because they are kind of pricey. This year is the first year since we got married that we decided we were going to get each other gifts. My husband is so sweet and said that he just had to go get me the stand mixer, he was afraid that I wouldn't like it because it was a KitchenAid but I love it. I cannot wait to use it, its going to make it so much easier to make cookies and cakes.

Friday, December 25, 2009

HO HO HO! Merry Christmas!

This year for the first time since being married we spend it in Utah just by ourselves. I don't think my husband enjoyed it as much as I did. I loved it though, we got to start our own little traditions and I got to decorate my own tree. It looks so pretty that I do not want to take it down. I think I am going to keep it up all thru January.

Last night we opened our first gift which were pajamas, Jon, baby and I all got green pajamas. Baby looks so cute. Then this morning we went down stairs and baby was just loving all the presents under the tree. Right away he went for them. He even helped open some of them up. I think his favorite gifts are what daddy got him which is a walker/bike and the wooden blocks my parents got him. My husband surprised me with a stand mixer, I have been wanting one since we got married and finally I got one, yay! It will come in handy since I love baking. I have a feeling I am going to be making even more cakes this year.

The hubby is now down stairs cooking, isn't he great? Once dinner is ready we are taking everything to my cousins house for our Christmas dinner. Of course we have to go over there to show off baby and his new Christmas outfit that Nana got him. He just looks too cute.

Christmas has always been one of my favorite holidays and not because of the gifts you get but just the whole warm feeling you get around this time of year but this year has just been super specially since it is the first Christmas that we are now a family of 3. I love out little family. Life really does not get better than this. Come what may come at the end of the day I am one lucky girl to have such an amazing husband and just the most perfect baby.

I hope everyone has an amazing day! Merry Christmas!

Saturday, December 19, 2009


I just love Philly. I have such good memories of Philadelphia. I got to go for almost 2 weeks and I really didn't do much but just hang out with my family. They absolutely love the baby but I mean who wouldn't. In going back thru all the pictures I was sad to find that I am not in very many most of them are of baby or he is in all of them. I only got one where he is not in it. The whole time I was there it was raining and just yucky so I didn't get to go into the city like I had wanted to so on my last day I asked my dad to please take me to the stadiums and so off we went not knowing that we were going to freeze. It was incredibly cold. We actually were not able to walk around just drive around and hop out of the car at spots we wanted to take pictures.

My parents are moving out of my childhood home so it was kinda sad going back knowing that this was going to be the last time I would ever be inside that house. I always get so sad when I have to come back since being back home is just so stress free and I have tons of help with the baby and I get treated like a baby too. I miss my family terribly, hopefully some day I will be able to have them close by.

Ok so here is proof that I really was in Philly.

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Life is hard

It really is and I think that most of the time at least for me it's easier to look at the negative things going on around than the positive. I really need to make an effort to look at the good things going on in my life.

The other day I was in the middle of writing some depressing post and got to talking with a cousin and she made me realize that even though we are going thru some hard times we are pretty lucky. I do have a healthy, beautiful baby boy, my husband adores me and we are both healthy too. Everything else will fall into place sooner or later. So I just need to have patience.

Once we get out of this house I know I will feel a whole lot better knowing that our money is going to last longer.

I had to go private

My blog at first was a way of keeping a journal of our family but since baby was born no one is really interested in what is going on in our lives just what is going on in baby's life which I totally understand. So I decided to make a blog for baby and make it private since I don't want strangers knowing what is going on in the life of my baby. Since I did that I decided that this blog could be a way for me to express my feelings and emotions and what goes on in my life. I think that as a human being I should be allowed to feel whatever way I want to feel and if I want to write about it then I should do so. Some people clearly do not think like me.

A few weeks ago some of my husbands family or should I say one person came across my blog and realized that some of the things I had posted about were about this one person even though I never mentioned names but they are not dumb so they decided to tell other family members about things I had posted but took things way out of context. Now you might ask yourself how do I know this, well let me explain. It was a Sunday and I get a call from my MIL and she tells me to please not to talk about any of their problems on my blog, ok I understand that but I haven't really posted anything about their problems. At the time I didn't think much about it I just told my husband that it was weird that she had said that to me but whatever. Then we get home and look at our email and we have an email from my husbands aunt, she is totally worried and upset because she heard that Jon had said that he hated his life. Now if she had really read my blog she would have known how that whole story went. So this is where I start thinking that someone is calling the family and telling them things I am writing but not the whole story. My husband freaks out because he isn't sure of what I have been writing on my blog and he heads on over to it and reads it and he doesn't really find a problem with it but can see how that one person might have gotten upset and called around to get people to be mad at me or something. He tells me right away to stop blogging or make it private cause I am going to cause issues in that family. I was so mad but I have done what my husband asked of me.

I didn't talk about it to my husband much since shortly after that I left for Philadelphia and just barely got back but since being back I talked to him and told him how my blog is a way of me writing my thoughts and that I should be allowed to do whatever I want to do with them. He now totally understands me so for now I will stay private but in a month or so I will just change my URL and other things on it so that no one can find me.