Saturday, February 5, 2011


This picture is not from today but just to get the picture.

What is happening today is 100 times worse than that picture.

We are going on tantrum numero 5 for the day and it's only 10:22am. At this point I am convince my child is working on a trip to the hospital to get stitches on his head.

I am just ignoring it but holy cow its hard.

And of course as I am writing this he has come up to me and giving me a hug and kiss but just like that he decided he wants my phone so he can beat the computer with it and while trying to stop him he loses it again.

Today will be such a fun day...NOT!

I should probably pick things up and get ready to head to Tita's house before I have a melt down like last nights.

Ok now I have to explain last night...or yesterday...

Without me knowing he grabbed 2 chocolate bars from his grandmas purse and ate them before me knowing what was going on. I was in the middle of making breakfast. Right them I knew it was going to be a hard day. He was fine all day while we were out but as soon as we got home he was crazy. He was go go go and nonstop for about 6 hours. Thank goodness my mom came over to watch him while I went out for 2 hours. I came back and he still had not had dinner or any food for that matter all day.

That started my melt down. I just feel like this whole parenting thing is way too hard, I am trying my best but I think I am falling short. I want my Baby to be healthy and lovable but some times I wonder. Every single day is a struggle to get him to eat ANYTHING well unless its junk food that of course he will eat but God forbid I serve him some real food. To top it off I feel like his eating issues have to do with my own issues with food so I am blaming myself for it. Then I feel like time outs are not working. I have put way too much pressure on myself I think but I am to the point where me going back to work and putting him in daycare is coming to mind more often than ever which then in return makes me feel like a horrible mother.

Anyways because of all the sugar intake yesterday I think that is helping with all the tantrums we have had so far so I guess no sugar at all for him today which in return turns into a tantrum every time. Lovely.


mama mouse said...

oi tantrums are the worst i've tried everything to squelch them but mostly i just ride it out.

Midwayedancer said...

Oh Laura *hugs*. I'm sorry things seem so bleak right now. Isaac also went through a phase when he was Bentley's age where it felt like he was always tantrumming. It is so exhausting. Hang in there!!

Laura said...

Thanks guys, at least I know I am not on my own.

Brad and Danielle said...

I don't know if you've seen my latest "meltdown" post from just a couple days ago, but this is life with a toddler. You are not a horrible mom. 2 year olds can't control themselves. It's not your fault!

And if going back to work will help you cope and feel better when you are home, there is no shame in that whatsoever. Last night when I told you I went back to work part time after a 7 month maternity leave, it was because I was having a hard time being at home with a screaming 6 month old baby. I felt horrible at first, but let me tell you, it helped a TON to be out and away for just a couple hours. I was so much happier during the rest of the day. I say, do whatever works for you and your family. Everyone will be happier.

I'm really enjoying reading your blog. So many things I can relate to. It's always nice to know you're not the only one who thinks being a mom is hard!!

Lots of hugs, I feel you girl!