Quilt

My first fully finished quilt!

And it only took me 2 years to finish it...

I feel so happy I was able to finish a quilt.

When I showed Baby the quilt he said "mami I likey, it's pretty, mine?" That boy of mine is truly amazing.

It's not perfect but it is my first quilt and I love it.

Now it's time to start on my next quilt, the next one will be more of a unisex one.

I love my child

As of late I am really enjoying being his mom.

I always have loved being his mami but lately he is just so stinkin cute, I swear I just wanna eat him up.

He says the funniest things and is such a loveable child.

He has been every single day been giving me kisses nonstop and telling me he loves me all day long. I cannot get enough of this.

I am really hoping this last a while but in the mean time I am just going to take it all in and enjoy it as much as I can.

He is growing so fast it makes me sad sometimes cause pretty soon I won't have him all to myself all the time.

Baby's little girlfriend is leaving us. I am so sad about this because that means I too am loosing a really good friend. They are moving to the Philippines for a few years her husband found an amazing job with an American company. They will have an amazing time out there living in paradise and I am not even joking about that I have seen the pictures and holy cow I think Jon needs to try and get that job once he is done with it.

Anyways, we took Baby and his little friend on a play date to the train station and we had a blast. I took a bunch of pictures because I want to remember them together and how cute they are. When they come back to the states she will be about 7 years old so I wanted to remember them this little.

Lately

Baby has been such a good behaved little boy lately.

I just love being his mom!

I have been having some rough emotional day lately and I try to have those emotional moments either at night or during nap times so that he doesn't see me sad.

However he must know something is up because he has been such a funny little man. He makes me laugh most of the day.

He has been talking more and more. The things he says or comes up with are shocking and his little attitude is kinda cute right now. I am sure as he gets older it won't be so cute but right now it's making my days.

He is also using his imagination so much lately and I cannot get enough of it. We play super heroes all day long. We also play dinosaurs where they are coming to get us and we are able to hide from them.

I am so loving this stage in my little ones life.

Honestly I love nothing more than being his mama!

Therapy

I was finally able to get an appointment to go see a therapist who won't try to rob me financially.

I know I need therapy but paying $75 for a 30 minute session just seems a little extreme for me.

I had my first session on the 1st of September and my mom is paid for it however I know she has not told my father that she is doing this and that to me says a lot about him and where he is at right now that my own mother won't tell him how I wanted them to pay for my therapy sessions. Oh well there's nothing I can do about that.

I really liked the therapist and the first sessions was just all over the place but he really got me thinking with some things about my life which is good because they were things I had never thought of before.

From here on out I probably won't be posting too much about that part of my life because I have decided I will keep a personal journal while dealing with it all. No one really wants to hear about my depressing life.

Anyways I do think that therapy is going to help me be able to forgive my father and help me with being able to be happy with every aspect in my life. I know nothing will be perfect cause nothing ever is but I can be happy with imperfection where right now I am not and I bring myself down when I am not perfect in everything.

School

Well it's been a good summer but it never last nearly long enough.

Jon goes back to school tomorrow and this semester he needs to kick butt to get he GPA to what he needs it to be so I know he is super nervous. He has a full semester with 2 fairly easy and 2 hard classes. Once he is done with this semester he will only have 3 more till he graduates, yay! However after that he still will have 3 more semesters to get his Masters. So we still have a LONG way to go till he is one with school but I keep telling myself it will all be worth it at the end. I hope at least, haha.

This week I also start working again. I will be working 4 days a week since Jon will be cutting his hours down to make sure he does good this semester.

Life keeps changing all the time!

5 year Anniversary

5 years ago today, at this same time I was on my way up to Lake Arrowhead in California from San Diego. I was getting ready to marry the love of my life in just a few short hours. I remember that day like it was just yesterday.

Our wedding day was beautiful, simple, elegant, romantic and private. A very special day for me. It was held right next to the lake and the pictures are just pure beauty.

I thank the Lord above every single day of my life that I met Jon. I don't think he realizes this but he truly has saved me from what my life would have been other wise. I love that man more than anything in this world. He makes me the happiest person on the planet.

A lot has happened in those 5 years but the most important thing is that we have grown up a lot and grown closer to each other. We know each other better than anyone else. The best thing however that has happened to us in those 5 years has been our son, he is our pride and joy.

I am truly lucky to have him in my life!

Tour of Utah

We have become a biking family and we love it.

I personally do not bike half as much as my husband does, he normally bikes 100 miles a week, I might do 20 but we do both have road bike and love being able to go out for rides.

So of course whenever you like a sport you really get all into it. This was a fun way to really get into the sport and get to see what the professionals do. The one cool thing about cycling is that this is the only sport where you are able to get so close to the professionals. Like if I extended my hand out I could have touched most of them. Pretty cool.

Anyways once we found out about the Tour of Utah we decided we would be going to at least 3 of the stages and that we did.

The first stage was in Ogden which was perfect and we had fun seeing the guys for the first time. We also went to stage 3 and 4 and we had a blast at stage 4 up at Capital Hill.

Jon's aunt and uncle are into biking BIG time so they flew out here for this and they had a blast and we enjoyed having them out here. I love when family comes out and we get to stay up late talking and just having fun. We all camped out at Jon's sisters house and the kids had fun playing with each other.

This is George Hincapie.

Bob Roll, used to be a cyclist now is a commentator

The guy in the yellow shirt is Levi and he is the guy who won the Tour of Utah

Funny story

With everything going on personally in my life I have been so tempted to drink and I don't mean water. I just feel like I need something to numb me for a few hours. I know this is horrible but it's the truth. I think my dear husband is super worried.

Last week I was making Peruvian roasted chicken and the recipe called for half a can of beer so I send Jon out to get me some for it. He watched me like a hawk and as soon as he saw I was done with the beer he ran over and emptied the rest of it and then tinder the can out. I had to laugh a little cause what does he think I am a crack addict and am going to lick the can to get some beer.

I know that the second you start to drink alcohol or take meds to numb pain is the moment you will get addicted to it because it only numbs you for a little bit and then you will need more. I know that but there are times or days it would be nice. Just saying.....

I know I am LDS I shouldn't be thinking that or let alone saying it but I am:(

Still no answer

I had told my mom a few days ago that what I wanted from her was for my parents to pay for my therapy sessions and she told me she would talk to my father about it. She made it seem like she thought that was doable.

Well its been almost a week since we had that talk and she barely talks to me, will only call to find out how Baby is doing. She has not mentioned what I said to her at all. I will give her till the middle of the month and then I will ask for an answer.

I know my mother would pay for it but I am just not sure my father would.

Lagoon and lake again

We had bounce backs for Lagoon which meant we could get in for only $10 a person so we decided we had to take advantage of that before it expired. Our friends also had the same thing so after work we all met up there and had an awesome night.

For the first time in over 14 years I actually got on a roller coaster. I am so glad my friend Ashley loves them goes it gave me the push I needed to get on them and my heck did I have a blast. I felt like a teenager again like I didn't have a care in the world for a few minutes. We went on almost all the roller coasters. On the last ride I also pooped myself it was so scary but still super fun.

I am so glad they came along cause it just made it so much more fun. I wish I would have gotten pictures with them but by the time I thought about it, it was dark and the only picture we got Ashley didn't like so I am not putting it up online.

My sister-in-law and her family also came along with my mother-in-law, brother-in-law and my brother which makes it always fun for Baby and he loves seeing his cousins and auntie.



The next day my sister-in-law with her family and my brother met up with us at the lake that we went to last week. We had such a fun time. Baby was a little on the not listening side today but what 2 year doesn't have those days. Heck what grown up doesn't have those days. Baby had so much fun playing with his cousin, uncle and tio. I got to just relax and talk to my sister-in-law and see her precious baby who is getting so big.

The weather today was perfect summer weather too hot and sunny but being right next to water is what makes it perfect. I am going to miss this nice weather that pretty soon will be gone but until it is gone I will enjoy it to the max. Next few week you will find me at the pool just about every day.