Oh happy day

I am so happy and I know the second I post this it will totally change just because...

but Baby has been eating everything I give him!

I think we have had a break thru and I could not be happier.

I read so many things about eating issues with children and I came to the conclusion that he was using food as a control thing with me. So I decided to give up on caring if he ate or didn't. I decided I would make his food and snacks and offer it to him and if he ate it good and if not he would eventually get hungry enough and so far it has been working amazingly.

I have also cut out all candy and cookies and anything that has sugar and his attitude has been totally different. We have not had a tantrum since then. I guess sugar really does affect him.

Utah LDS are different from everywhere else

At our tumbling class the other day I met a grandma who was there with her little granddaughter.

She is african-american and that in Utah is not normal so I of course had to ask why she moved here. It had to do with the military. She then asked me why I moved here and I told her I was LDS. She started to tell me how hard it has been living in Utah. She said had she not known LDS people before moving here she would have just thought that every LDS person was rude and racist.

That makes me so sad because as LDS people we are supposed to love everyone no matter the race or religion or anything else for that matter.

However since I have lived here I have noticed that LDS people are not very nice to people who are not LDS. For example when I first moved to these apartments I would see a mom with her kids outside and I would say hello and smile at her just to have her turn her face away and look somewhere else. The second she found out I was LDS she all of a sudden start talking to me and saying hi and smiling. AHHH!! That makes me so mad.

Listen I am not perfect or very religious but I do make an effort to talk to everyone I see at the playground pool or for that matter even when I go on a walk I will make conversation with people I see out. We are supposed to love EVERYONE not just LDS people.

I have a friend who is in a multi-racial marriage and she has told me that she feels like people don't talk to her or want to be her friend because of that. So sad.

Tumbling

Today was the second time we went to tumbling.

Last time was really hard since he does not understand taking turns or following direction. It went so bad that he ended up throwing a tantrum and I ended up with a huge bite on my finger. That was the first time he has ever bitten anyone.

I decided that I would start stretching with him at home and doing the routine they do there with him here at home and that way he would know what is going on. He did everything I told him to at home but once we get to the class he wants nothing to do with stretching and then with the other things he just wants to go where he wants to go.

Today towards the end he threw a tantrum and I am starting to think that its because the class is too close to his nap time. So my friend and I decided to change his class along with her little girl to an afternoon class. We start next week with the new time and there will only be 3 kids in that class so more attention from the teachers, I hope it works.

Being a mom is hard

I don't know if this motherhood thing is made for me.

There are days where I feel like I am failing. I am getting a big fat F.

Baby throw tantrums over everything. He bit me the other day and he is super mean to some people.

I just don't even know what to do some days.

I have so much pressure on me it feels like. If he acts up, I feel like people look at me like I am a horrible mother. How do people get their children to behave? I don't even understand it.

I will be putting him in pre-school come August cause I don't have enough friends for him to get socialized.

I don't know how any child ever turns out ok. Or maybe its just me who thinks this way who knows.

Eating is a struggle

Not for me of course or my husband but with Baby.

I might go crazy.

No honestly...I am losing sleep over this. I will be making a doctors appointment to get him checked out just to make sure everything is ok.

This has been a problem from the time he started eating solids and I let the doctor know but he didn't seem to think there was a problem since he was gaining weight and growing. The problem has just gotten worse, I think.

There are days where he will eat but those days are few and far apart. Most days he will eat something for breakfast but the rest of the day forget it. Its like pulling teeth to get him to eat. I have to sit right next to him and basically put the food in his mouth and most of the time he just spits it right out.

The last 2 days I don't even think he has had 2 meals. Today for example he ate breakfast, 4 hours later he had a pediasure drink since he wouldn't eat lunch. He wakes up from his nap and he tells me he is hungry so I offer him food and he tells me no thanks and tells me that he wants "cake" which means he wants candy or a cookie. Ahhh! I don't even keep candy here anymore because it became something of a power struggle. I of course give in after about 2 hours of him crying that he is hungry.

The thing is I know he is getting most of his vitamins since he is taking vitamins every day and drinking pediasure. He also has more energy than any other child I know so he has to be eating something right?

I am going to try tomorrow not giving in to his crying so I am getting myself mentally ready for a horrible day. I am just going to serve him the food I make and let him eat it when he wants it. I hope this works.

Tour De Palm Springs

I did it!

All 25 miles of it, without walking one single time.

I am so proud of myself, this has never happened and I didn't even practice for it. I had not done anything cardiovascular in about 4 months. I thought I would die for sure but no I made.

My husband also made it but he did the 55 miles and I am super proud of him, he did amazing.

I have a crazy story to add to this also...

At last minute my brother Aaron decided to come with us. At last minute he also decided he wanted to ride in the Tour so Jon's uncle let Aaron borrow one of his road bikes. The day of the Tour I got a ride by aunt Mary who came and picked Baby up since she watched him for me while I did the ride. Aaron went with my brother in law. Once I got there I called my brother in law to see where they were and he tells me he has lost my brother. I freaked out. There were more than 10,000 people there. How do you find someone, especially since he had no phone on him.

Each group started at different times. The 55 miles started at 8am and the 25 started at 9am. We looked for Aaron for about 2 hours, we even had him called thru the mic but he never came up. I decided to go on my bike ride and to just look for him at the rest stops and thru the ride.

I thought it would be easy to find my brother since he is skinny, tall and with what he was wearing I didn't think too many people would be wearing the same thing. Well to my surprise everyone was tall, skinny and tons of people were wearing the same color shorts and shirt. Ahh!

I looked the whole ride for him and prayed like crazy. My brother in law felt horrible for losing him.

My brother in law and I finished the race at about 12:15 and right away I started looking for him but we could not find him. I called Jon crying and he just didn't even know what to do. He was still on his ride and was having a hard time with his legs cramping up. Right when I was about to go talk to the police I see Aaron coming towards the car and he looked like he was about to pass out. He had gone off with the group who did the 55 miles. He finished it in less than 4 hours. Which is super fast. He said the whole time he was flying trying to find us or someone he knew and that he only stopped once to fill up with water. He is crazy. I had to stop at both rest stops to fill up on liquid and eat my energy bar and bananas. I cannot believe he did the 55 miles without any energy bars or energy boosters. Even Jon was shocked at how fast he did it.

All I have to say is thank goodness he found us. I don't know what I would have told my mom.

Now we all have caught the biking bug. I am thinking of saving up to buy myself and road bike and my brother is ready to buy a bike today. We are totally going to be signing up for at least 4 more bike rides this year. They are so much fun and when you finish them you feel so proud of yourself. Its such a self-esteem booster.

I am so sad that I didn't get any pictures of us. They take pictures during the ride so I will have to go and order them and then I will post them.

My song right now

I am loving Katy Perry's Firework. I would upload it up on here if I knew how to do that :) To make it even better the lyrics are super clean and it has a good message to it. I wish when I was in middle school their could have been songs like this to make me feel like it was okay to be different.

Skype

I finally got skype and I am so excited. I stay logged on all day. Can you tell I am super bored right now, with the weather the way it has been the last week and with no car to go anywhere I am super bored. There is only so much cleaning, cooking and showering you can do.

The great thing is I am getting to talk to my family who is all in Costa Rica and its free. I am loving this so far. I don't know why it has taken me so long to get it.

Tantrum

This picture is not from today but just to get the picture.

What is happening today is 100 times worse than that picture.

We are going on tantrum numero 5 for the day and it's only 10:22am. At this point I am convince my child is working on a trip to the hospital to get stitches on his head.

I am just ignoring it but holy cow its hard.

And of course as I am writing this he has come up to me and giving me a hug and kiss but just like that he decided he wants my phone so he can beat the computer with it and while trying to stop him he loses it again.

Today will be such a fun day...NOT!

I should probably pick things up and get ready to head to Tita's house before I have a melt down like last nights.

Ok now I have to explain last night...or yesterday...

Without me knowing he grabbed 2 chocolate bars from his grandmas purse and ate them before me knowing what was going on. I was in the middle of making breakfast. Right them I knew it was going to be a hard day. He was fine all day while we were out but as soon as we got home he was crazy. He was go go go and nonstop for about 6 hours. Thank goodness my mom came over to watch him while I went out for 2 hours. I came back and he still had not had dinner or any food for that matter all day.

That started my melt down. I just feel like this whole parenting thing is way too hard, I am trying my best but I think I am falling short. I want my Baby to be healthy and lovable but some times I wonder. Every single day is a struggle to get him to eat ANYTHING well unless its junk food that of course he will eat but God forbid I serve him some real food. To top it off I feel like his eating issues have to do with my own issues with food so I am blaming myself for it. Then I feel like time outs are not working. I have put way too much pressure on myself I think but I am to the point where me going back to work and putting him in daycare is coming to mind more often than ever which then in return makes me feel like a horrible mother.

Anyways because of all the sugar intake yesterday I think that is helping with all the tantrums we have had so far so I guess no sugar at all for him today which in return turns into a tantrum every time. Lovely.

My crafts

This is what I have been making as of late. I love making them, they are super easy and I can do them while I watch TV since I don't need the sewing machine. Well for the last picture I did need the sewing machine for part of it. I gave these to my niece, who knows if she liked them but I sure did. I think I might even make some for myself.

Friends

This last Saturday night we had dinner with our new friends. I don't remember if I have written about them.

Jon met the husband in one of his classes and they happen to live like 3 blocks away so finally about 2 weeks ago we had them over and then they called to invite us over for Saturday. I am guessing they like us, yes! This is a very good thing:)

They made an amazing dinner and we get along so well. Jon and the husband were nonstop talking all night long. They seem to have the same interest. Both the wife and husband are very down to earth and not fake.

The best part is how much Baby loves their baby. She is only 5 months old but just the cutest thing. Baby was loving on her all night and making noises to make her laugh and she was just giggling so hard. He also really liked the wife which is weird because Baby does not feel comfortable with people unless he has been seeing them for a long time but he was sitting next to her and when she went upstairs to change the baby Baby followed without me going.

I am so glad we have finally made some new friends.

Funny story

A few weeks ago all of a sudden my husband started doing the dishes every night and cleaning the kitchen. By the third day doing this I was starting to get worried that he was trying to get me to do something for him or agree to something. So I asked him why all of a sudden he has been helping me clean.

He begins to tell me that the other day I had left my blog page up on the computer and my he happened to walk by and start reading the blog. He came across the one blog post that I put up about him cooking and making a huge mess but not cleaning after himself and how frustrating that is. I guess it made him feel bad and see my point of view. He told me he decided that night that he was not going to say anything and just start helping me out. Poor guy. I think he thought I made him look bad.

I love my husband. For the last 2 weeks, I think, he has not missed one single day of helping me out. Oh and to add to how awesome he is, just the month of January alone he has brought me flowers 3 times and this last time he brought me my favorite, tulips.

Working out

Not me of course, I don't even know when the last time I worked out was but my dear husband has been working out so much since the new year started. And I could not be happier. He is taking a spinning class at school so he has one hour spinning on Monday and Wednesday and then he signed up for a spinning class for Saturdays at a bike shop near our house. With that alone he is working out a lot but then on Monday and Thursday nights he is going to the gym and lifting weights. I can already tell he is losing weight and he seems so motivated. He is also in better moods, hahaha. He is so going to be ready for the 55 mile he is doing in 2 weeks. Me on the other hand I might die doing the 25 miles I signed up to do. This should be interesting.